Somthing stop me from going back.

Now is my school long holiday. It’s almost more than three months holiday. I’m really missed my parent’s.

I’ really feel want going back visit them but my heart have stopped me. I don’t know when I allow my self going back. I’m cannot imagine what I can see in my hometown. I don’t know what kind of feeling will come to me if I go back. Why this effect come to me when break with her?

Hopefully one day I can 100% put her down.